nobody wan tis to happen.. perharps god?..
is not the matter of withdrawing. the matter of continuing.
probably i'm not confident enough to be with u.. jus tat u'r too good for me that i may probably take advantage of u.. being not mature enough.. that's all i can thought of..
wat u told me.. no time being with me during those competition.. yesh i may feel lonely or even misses u..it's isn't good for u to sent me home and rush back to wherever place u goin..i dun wan u to waste or rather i wan u to use that time to rest well and consentrate ur competition.. is rather lik me taking advantage of u .. sending me home..even if i want it.. hee... but u'r simply quite busy tat almost quite pissed off when ever ur agent call u... but wat can i do.. jus bear with it..u'll jus stuck in btween two lamp post...
even if i didn't tok to u abt that job... the delaying of money.. the amount of time spent.. i think u wouldn't hav the mind of quitting. maybe u do hav a little..is jus tat maybe i'm an influence to u?
things may change ...might or might not.. things are beyong our control.. jus let it be natural... IF u become famous or watever.. i'll jus feel happy of course.. but i'll think u r real far too good for me to be with.. but .. the point is i want to be with u.. seriously.. i'm jus a simple minded gal tat having a simple life.. smooth... fun..sometimes i lov to be busy.. but not all times.. i'm not tat kind which need to be pampered or sweet toks NO NO NO.. tat's not effective for me.. rather i wan true words and understanding. understanding takes time.. but i hope we'll get deeper understandings rather than misunderstandings.
here todae.. when we were in the bus.. i would choose not to say anything that ended up.. both of us were moody ..sorry...
if i dun msg u.. didn't call u.. it doesn't mean ther's no love from me.. as i say.. actions speaks louder than words.. i may not hav any " obvious" actions but my body is ther to show my mind is with u..
show ur best performance and remember i'm behind for u!.. BUT.. if u won... pls do something .. haa.. CHANGE UR HP!!!.. lolx... jk
love u always..(>.<)
