nv been touching on the penang trip. maybe ther's nothing nothing to touch about.. disappointment filled up the air i breath. ever since my first race, ther's lots of disapointment.well. it's hard to describe. the feedbacks reli make feel i'm a lousy pacer. but i'll continue to work harder to set the perfect pace. all i need is support. that's the best gift for a new beginning.everything is over. we can't turn back time.christmas is over.but a new year is here. everything got to start afresh. the team, we need to make a change. or maybe i shld say, we MUST change.why are making mistakes that we are suppose to change. this is ridiculous. be it discipline, attitude, trainings, we need to change for a better future. if we continue in this manner, we will not make it for any races. i'm tired of losing. so do others. i don't wan to wait for the next race to win. why can't we win now and ever. maybe it's jus time. time to brush up and time to feel how good we are.are we fit to?. i hope for the best. i recalled, times during my primary school. when i'm still fancy about autograph books. getting frends to write in your autoigraph book. write things lik best frens, good frens, enemies.. hurhur. this is hilarious. think about it, it's reli a wonderful time to be childish. i believe every single one of you do that before. hurhur. well. that's part and parcel of growing up. good enough, i still keep those autograph books. i have in totall 3! hurhur. i was wondering. why do i collect that at that time? maybe it is use to keep address and send christmas and new year cards to friends. when email is not that popular at that time. hurhur. when i reciever many cards, i'll be damn happy. shows that ther's lot's of frens.-.-... childish isn't it. when i grow old. i start to forget stuffs lik birthdays of my frens, important dates.which ever way you put it. maybe i forget is becox ther too much stuff going on my life. that will explain why. i apologise.