:)

i miss my love.

So now, i started to recall back when my friend of my asked me " how did you meet you boyfriend?"

oh so. while some of you might be wondering how? i have got a hard time recalling how actually.

i am such a fugly freak that i would never thought of getting a boyfriend. I have gotten now :)

Back den, i was an innocent, no mental, no physical woman that joined dragonboat for CCA. I was bloody weak at that time. So when i was still deciding whether to join tennis or dragon boat. Coincidentally, my friend adeline asked me to go have a look at their races. so i happily agreed.

From that race onwards, that was how kok noticed me. ( i got no idea at all) haha. He took sneaky pictures of me without my consent. i scanned thru the pictures AND IT WAS DAMN UGLY LA. and ya. thats how it started.

Followed by adding me on MSN. blah blah. He introduced by sending a photo of himself. "crappyjerk'' appeared on the msn window. for a moment i was thinking, what a name -roll eyes-

blah blah, he tried his very best to describe himself as i told him i got no idea who he was. such a pest! (as usual, i don't really speak to guys la). i keep closing the chat window but it reappear again and again. so wells, entertain him a while lo. the photo he sent was quite good looking ( muscular, tanned). haha loooks like one of the character in the ADAM'S Family. ( guess who)


A question popped out. " hanphone number?'' i typed in just like normal. The next few days we msged each other on MSN, hp. He asked me out for a lunch, and i happily agreed ( i missed one of my lecture to meet him for lunch, don't ask me why..i don't know why too).

Thats our first date. sitting at BTM eating duck rice and he ate jap. He started several crap topic which i think i won't make an effort to remember it. Crap crap crap.

In the first place, i don't relly like entertaining crappy people. moreover, he called himself crappyjerk - roll eyes- . so there isn't any good impression on him. ya and he look really crappy at that time.



we didn't contact each other for a period of time. I didn't bothered to msg him too. So ya, having my team mates saying he's very outstanding and a loud speaker. i started to realised him in the team. (he is too loud la).



Not long later, he msged me and we start chatting again. Purely friend conversations. ( lets skip this part)



One day. i recieved a msg from adeline khoo. saying that " can i meet you at kebangan avenue for a moment?". It was my birthday that day. I couldn't be bothered to go out so i stayed at home. I walked out with my lousy short and shirt. ( looking like those market people). Guess what, behind a van i saw someone's feet rushing to hide. Act blur and continue walking. Think again, something must be wrong out there. i walked towards the van. I saw Mr Wong Kok Yi. holding a piece of cake. haha. It was suppose to be a surprise. But i'm smart enough to ruin it. -.-. That was the first birithday i spent with someone i'm not very comfortable with. But quite sweet la.

Ever since the 'surprise', i feel something more. We started to hang out often. Ying's term, 'friends with benefits' haha. It meant to be low profile. but somehow, the team knows it. (must big some big mouth)

Heres the exciting part.
We bought "cinderella man'' movie tickets. plenty of time before the movie starts and so we took a walk around marina square. That time our status was friends with PLENTY of benefits. haha.

so i popped a question, '' anything you want to tell me?'' his face turned pale. HAHA. (i'm expecting something like ... you know... kind of stuff -shy-)

I thought to myself at that point, if he did not say whatever i wanna hear, I would keep the time hanging out with him as a beautiful memory and start focuing on races. ( i meant it). And soon, his arm came around me. telling me :'' its cold out here''. (don't you feel like acting a drama series?) so drama la. he said things that was pleasant enough for my ear to take it :) He hugged me from behind. i told myself. i hope time will pause for a moment. let me enjoy to the fullest. But that moment passed swiftly. We were late for the movie.

I'll never forget the hug he gave me that night. i love hugs from behind. :)

The reason why am I penning this down only now is because nothing comes by just like that. Everything happened for a reason i guess. Regardless its good or bad. It is everything about having the slimmest chance of meeting someone I really feel comfortable with and making it happen. So I want to remember and keep that memory forever. and what if everything got to end one day. at least i still have a beautiful memories in my head.