beauty in you.

I had a nice talk over at my friend's place yesterday afternoon. i felt grateful to have her to talk to. or else i'll be at home depressinggggggggggg.
i thought we would have some age gap thing between us.
Eventually everything was just fine.

i've to be strong i guess.

i realised or rather all along i dislike accounting. and i can't see myself being an accountant. This friend of mine, who is also an accountant, told me : ''now or never''

oh wellll..

right now, i've to prepare all my exam materials and get my butt glued to the chair. Well, i'm doing something i dislike most. be it the course or the purpose. sigh.

I can't bring myself to tell my parents that i want to give a change or something. they will definetly kill me and pork chop me. =/
sighhhhhh

oh. they had finalise the Nteam coach. the RP coach. i guess i'll give it a try. But my current club is in a mess. everybody is like... grrrrr... i feel not motivated to carry on. so sad. i thought i would find something i lacked from np. it seems to be wrong. so weird.

omg. Nteam training on satudays is 3pm to 6pm!!!! sunday 8am to 11am!!!! WTH. so late! -faint-
so -.- ..... tues thurs too. clash with ntuc training. everything is in a mess now. they are trying to fix a time slot for ntuc. i guess i'll be having double sections againnnnn....damn pack and no life. sigh. maybe thats a good way to get myself tired and coma.

i just realised this wednesday is public holiday. lol. no training! but i still intend to train. i want my fitness back. i feel so blardy lousy these few days. really lousy. sigh.

i 've got to clear my lung. clear those bad stuff inside. clean clean. hopefully i can manage to get rid of those stuff. seriously. its bad. and i will.

the sun is going to rise soon.
better sleep.
good nights.