Not againnnn. From the best vision that i could see, nothing is clear at the moment. Ahhhh something like a jigsaw puzzle? A destroyed 1000 pieces puzzle. Some soft hollow voice whispered to my burd brain and told me to fix it. No matter how bad it will be.
Oh boy. this must be some sort of ''lack of sleep'' illusion. i can't believe it actually. So what if it's a broken part, replace it! But oh good grieve, the thought of fixing the broken part is really a chore for me, I feel god damn tiny and soft. useless and empty. who cares actually.
If anybody ever gonna ask me now.
Yes. I am afraid. Still.
Seriously, i got zero idea how to fix these thoughts. I can't sort it out properly.
ROW, SLEEP, STUDY. Ironically, this is the world most mundane motion you can ever enjoy. at least to me. i had the best time of my life with the batch that, deep down inside i cherish the most. oh wells, i don't usually say such stuff to anybody. and who give a god damn fuck about how i feel. The motion that i'm following through, i am not very sure i am enjoying it or maybe for the sake of it.
i tried my very very best to see it through. And than i realized, nothing will stay fooever. you know. its like shooting stars? Oh freeaaakkk, i stepped into this hectic and messy world for 21 years. i still do hope that one day, a shooting star will stay.
How many special people change? Go your own way.
And i believe, one day you will pick yourself up. face it. brace it.
Nobody say it was easy. pain. isn't that how we grow as a better person?
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